Okay, so that’s a bit of an exaggeration…but I just learned that the Delgados are calling it quits. I generally respond to news of beloved bands breaking up calmly, but I only started listening to the Delgados a couple of years ago, and only became totally passionate about them last year. So this is hitting me really hard.
It doesn’t help that I’m having the worst week I’ve had in a while…
- I’ve been battling bronchitis for about a week—feeling steadily better each day, but I had another health problem a few weeks ago, so overall I’m still feeling weak and physically awful. And I’m a real wimp about not feeling well.
- It’s been a particularly wretched week at work; each day that I’m here seems to add a new layer of people who get to tell me what to do, and subtracts another chunk of my self-esteem. My job is just…demeaning, soul-sucking, belittling. For the past three or four weeks, I’ve been able to mostly ignore that fact because I’ve been doing some consulting work for the company that I fervently hope is going to hire me…but in the past couple of days, they’ve suddenly stopped calling me, and I’m all anxious and worried that the whole job prospect is going to come crashing down. I think I must have jinxed it by talking about it too much to too many people, and by allowing myself to think that it was all but a done deal. Suddenly, I feel very pessimistic about the prospects of it actually happening.
- Our house, which is always a pigsty, has become almost intolerable to me, which makes it hard to feel like I have a safe haven anywhere. I’m overwhelmed by the mess and the clutter and dirt (and mice! in the garage and in the basement ceiling), not to mention the fact that I estimate it will take at least $30K to make our house liveable and sellable, and I’m disgusted with myself for not having the energy to do more about it. I’ll work on it when I graduate, I keep telling myself.
- But I’m behind on schoolwork, so who knows if I’ll graduate in May like I’m supposed to?
And that ain’t all, but I’m sick of hearing myself complain; I’m really just mentioning the above to illustrate the fact that the LAST FRIGGIN’ THING I needed to hear today was that the Delgados are breaking up.
I’ll eulogize them when I’m feeling calmer. Right now, I think I need to write a separate post about something positive so that I don’t sink into total musical despair.