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It occurs to me that in my lengthy post about my particular attachment to Dolly Varden, I didn’t say a whole hell of a lot about what they sound like. That’s partly because their sound is a little bit hard to describe; for a while, they tended to get lumped in with alt-country/Americana, but that’s not really accurate. I really need to come up with a genre term that describes the style of bands like Dolly Varden and Dolorean—not that the two sound alike at all, just that they’re equally hard to describe. In the case of Dolly Varden, there’s a little twang, lots of melody, and the highly distinctive guitar work of Mark Balletto (who has a fine spinoff band of his own, My Record Player), which is capable of being both shimmery and unexpectedly crunchy, though not usually in the same song. Mostly, there are two words that come to mind when I try to describe the Vardens: “joyous” and “beautiful.” Even when the lyrics are downbeat, which they often are, there’s a sheer joy to the sound of the songs that just lifts the heart up and brings a little ache to the throat. Geez, I wish I had a better vocabulary for this kind of thing, rather than standard rock-crit cliches, but…there’s a lyric in the (happy, upbeat, joyous) song “I Come to You,” from “The Dumbest Magnets,” that goes: “And when my chest is open wide/You could pull yourself inside.” When you listen to it, you feel exactly what Steve is singing: your heart feels so big and full that it could just burst from your body. (Okay, now I’m starting to sound like the plot of “Alien.” Maybe I should quit while I’m behind.)

And beautiful: the melodies, the vocals, the arrangements. Beautiful and sometimes delicate, but in no way wispy or ethereal or frail. Just sheer gorgeousness and gorgeosity, to quote that little droogy Alex. Steve and Diane’s first band, Stump the Host, was kind of a punk band, I guess, but Steve says that it didn’t work so well for him and Diane to sing in that style because they’re both “pretty” singers. And it’s true, they are—both of them. Diane’s voice is full of color and timbre, capable of moving from light and sweet to dark and slightly husky in the same song; Steve’s is soulful and strong, but still, well, pretty.

Argh, enough trying to wrestle an adequate description to the ground. Just go listen to them: there are a number of MP3s on this page of their site.

Moving on: today’s NP list:

1. Michael Berube’s blog, because it’s been a while since I mentioned it, but also because the most recent entry (dated September 23) is exceptionally powerful. There are so many great political blogs out there (along with the crappy ones) that it’s hard to definitively say that any one of them is the best, but I will say that Michael’s is my favorite, bar none. (NB: I get to call him Michael because he was at Columbia when I was at Barnard—he was a year behind me—and though I don’t actually know him, we have mutual friends. In case anyone was wondering.)

2. The Brakes, “Give Blood.”* My online friend Ged has been pimping this UK band for months. I respect his taste, so I listened to some samples online. Liked ‘em pretty well, but wasn’t sure I was going to buy the album. But then it was released in the US, and half of the rest of Postcard starting raving about it too, so I caved in to peer pressure and bought it. And I’m very glad I did. It’s a weird little (and I do mean little: it’s less than half an hour long, which I guess is kind of a raw deal when you’re paying full CD price, but is nonetheless fine with me because I think almost every CD that comes out nowadays, including ones that I adore, is just too damn long) record, full of humor and quirks, but they’re not a novelty band by any means. Mostly, what they are is entertaining, in the best sense. Vastly entertaining, and definitely innovative. But perhaps not as innovative as…

3. Malcolm Middleton, “Into the Woods.” I probably wouldn’t even know about this guy if he weren’t on the Delgados’ label, Chemikal Underground, because I wasn’t familiar with the band he was (is?) in, Arab Strap. Fortunately, though, I’ll listen to anything the Delgados tell me to listen to (though I draw the line at Mother and the Addicts), so I checked out Malcolm’s latest. I ended up buying his first record, the brilliantly titled “5:14 Fluoxytine Seagull Alcohol John Nicotine” (how could you not love a record with a title like that?), and falling in love with it first, because “Into the Woods” was only available on import. When it was released here, though, I bought it right away, and it’s just genius. Maybe it would seem more ordinary if he didn’t have a heavy Scottish (Glaswegian, I think) accent, but I think the accent is only a small part of the whole picture. He takes deeply depressive but also sometimes hysterically funny lyrics and sets them against melodies that are alternately dreamy and just sort of jangly and upbeat, and his voice, which is gruff and talky and not at all sweet, is what ties it all together. Amazing stuff. Sample lyric: “You’re gonnae break my heart and I know it/And if you don’t/You’re gonna break my string of bad luck/And ruin my career.”

4. The first, self-titled David Johansen record, recently discussed here. Hearing a once-beloved record that you haven’t heard in eons is kind of like the reconnection with old friends that I’ve been dwelling on so much here lately: you wonder if memory has put too much of a shiny gloss on reality, and you question whether you’ll still have anything in common. In this case, there was no reason to worry. This is still a great album that doesn’t sound even remotely dated, and I was happy to find that not only do the killer songs that I remember vividly (“Donna,” “Cool Metro,” “Frenchette”) still sound as great as ever, some of the ones I had forgotten (“Pain in My Heart,” “I’m a Lover”) do too. And it’s another blessedly short record, even with the addition of a (totally inessential) bonus track. Of course, it’s probable that I can’t be objective about this record, because of the powerful time-and-place associations with it. But insofar as I can be, I feel comfortable recommending the record.

5. And sticking to following up on that same post, I’ve been treating myself to an episode every few nights of “Butterflies,” and I’m delighted to find that I still love it. It’s odd how much I remembered about it (and some little details that I’d forgotten, or misremembered: for my own satisfaction, I need to correct myself to note that Ria meets Leonard in a restaurant, not in the park—and it’s a very funny scene). I can’t unequivocally recommend it to everyone, I guess, for various reasons: the production values are pretty much nonexistent (I guess the Beeb didn’t have much of a budget for sitcoms in 1978), and it seems kind of stagy at times; you can sort of feel the writing behind the lines as they’re spoken. But they’re often very, very funny lines—I’ve been laughing at the show much more than I expected—as well as incisive and sometimes wistful and heart-tugging. And the acting is marvelous, even if the clothes and hairstyles are comically dated. I haven’t gotten to the more wistful stuff yet; in fact, I don’t think that cropped up much in the first season, which is the only one that’s available so far. But I do still get a little teary when I hear the theme song (a somewhat de-schmaltzed rendition of Dolly Parton’s extra-schmaltzy song “Love is Like a Butterfly”).

Um, I guess I haven’t really gotten the hang of this NP thing yet—these were supposed to be short, simple posts so that I could do them regularly without using up a whole lunch hour. More practice is required, I guess.

*(Lately, I’ve been putting album titles in quotation marks, which makes me a little uneasy, because I’m a Chicago Manual type of girl and at heart I believe that titles should be in italics. But quotes are so much easier to type…So if I decide to go back to italics, I apologize in advance to anyone who is driven crazy by such stylistic inconsistencies. Which pretty much means that I’m apologizing to myself.)

On the various music lists that I’m on/have been on in the past, people often include an “n.p.” at the bottom of their posts. It stands for “now playing,” and it’s followed by whatever they’re listening to at that moment. (There’s also “npimh,” which I like better: it means “now playing in my head,” and it’s used when a post’s content somehow calls to mind a song or song title.) I like looking at people’s n.p.’s; I’ve actually found out about new bands I’ve come to like just by asking about a record in someone’s n.p. line. N.p. lines are disappearing rapidly from one of the lists because a lot of the people there are using Last.fm/Audioscrobbler, so they just post lists of their top 10 scrobbles of the week, which is fine, except I liked it better when people posted actual content and then stuck an n.p. line at the bottom, rather than just posting a list of ten band names. But such is the march of technology, I suppose.

And I notice that various IM services have picked up on the n.p. idea now—I was a little alarmed the other day when I signed into MSN’s Messenger (which we use at work) to send a quick note to a co-worker who was talking to the client, and a little line appeared at the top of the message window showing the title of the song I was listening to. Oooh, creepy.

But I’ve decided that here on the blog, henceforth “n.p.” will stand for “now pimping.” I guess the more family-friendly version would be “now plugging,” but thanks to Postcard, I’ve gotten in the habit of calling the act of proselytizing for a band “pimping,” so I’ll stick with that.

Or maybe it should stand for “now proselytizing,” for that matter. I have a draft of a blog entry that I started months ago somewhere that’s actually called Proselytizing, and it’s about how like a lot of avid music listeners, I secretly think that my taste is the best and everyone should share it, but while there are certain bands that I actively proselytize for because I think that just about everyone I know—not to mention everyone on the planet—should know and love, there are some that I’m not as active in pimping because I know they’re not for everyone. In most cases, I fully understand why people don’t “get” those bands. They’re wrong, of course, but I forgive them. Dolorean were the example I was thinking of when I started the post, because although I think Al James can pretty much do no wrong, I understand that the band’s dreamy, slow, elegiac sound won’t appeal to everyone. So although I try to talk about them a lot, I don’t push too hard, because I know some people just plain old won’t like them. And I can live with that.

On the other hand, there are bands like the Delgados and the Libertines who deserve universal love. I won’t say this on an e-mail list, of course, where I am doing my best to remain polite and diplomatic because I got so sick of feuding with people (people who, for the purposes of my universe, were not actually people but merely faceless collections of zeroes and ones on the other side of a connection node, which makes it even sillier to get het up about disagreements with them), but in some small, impolite part of my brain, I believe fundamentally that if you are a fan of whatever you want to call the current post-indie-heyday rock genre and you don’t like the Delgados or the Libertines, you’re just wrong, and your head is implanted in some bodily orifice from which you really need to extract it. Okay, that’s only a small part of my otherwise well-behaved little brain that says that, but it does, in fact, say it.

And in that spirit, I want to start regular pimping of music, books, TV shows, and other forms of entertainment (I’d include movies, but considering how far behind the curve I am these days with movies—hell, I just saw “Vera Drake,” a highly acclaimed movie by my favorite filmmaker, last night—I think any movie recommendations I might make would be irrelevant, unless I’m pimping old classics, I guess) that I think everyone should be paying attention to. I’m going to try to pimp roughly five items per week; might end up with more than that, but given my, er, spotty history of keeping the blog updated, five seems like a good number to aim for at the start.

Except that today’s list is only going to include one item, I think, because (gee, how surprising) this one requires a little more than just a couple of lines of “why I think this band/record/book/blog/TV show is good.” Here goes:

1. Steve Dawson, “Sweet Is the Anchor.” Steve is the co-lead singer, along with his wife, Diane Christiansen, of the recently dormant but not dead Chicago band Dolly Varden, and this is a side project of his. It’s being billed as a solo album, though he recorded it and has been playing it live with a band, featuring vibes, pedal steel, and some cool percussion (not to mention Diane doing backing vocals). It’s quite different from the slightly alt-country-tinged indie rock (or whatever we’re calling it) of Dolly Varden; Steve’s a big soul fan, and there are hints of soul and gospel all through the record, but it’s not exactly a soul record. It’s hard to describe, so just listen to some MP3s here, and if “Love Is a Blessing” is a little too slow and long for you, don’t be put off; it’s a great song, but it is a little more lugubrious than others on the record. The instrumentation is part of what makes the record cool, but Steve’s songwriting and his gorgeous voice (and Diane’s too) are what really make it stand out. It was the only thing in my CD player for a good long while recently. Go see Steve and band live too, if you get a chance, because the record really comes to life when they play it live—though unless you live in Chicago, you probably won’t get a chance to see them.

In the interests of full disclosure, and because I’ve mentioned Dolly Varden at least once on the blog but haven’t really talked about them at length, I’ll take a little detour here to pimp them, even though they won’t have a new record out until next year at the soonest. I had never even heard of them until I was asked to interview them, back when I was living in Chicago and still writing for the MoMzine. Corrie from Miles of Music sent me their then-new record “The Dumbest Magnets,” and my friend Roy was also pimping it at the time, so I expected to like it, and I did, pretty okay. And then I listened to it some more, and then a few times more, and with each listen I found myself falling in love with it a little more. It’s that kind of record: you don’t just want to listen to it, you want to date it—gaze deeply into its eyes and take it with you everywhere you go.

I interviewed Steve in person and Diane by phone, and really took to them as people, too; they’re extremely gifted (Diane is an artist as well as a musician, and one of these days, I’m going to buy a painting of hers), but also totally down to earth and normal— that is, normal in my definition, which is “having a lot of common ground with me.” The article was one of the best I did for the MoMzine (though I can’t prove that, unfortunately, since the old archives aren’t online anymore). I’d always chat with Steve when I ran into him at shows during my remaining months in Chicago, and we stayed in loose touch after I left. They put out another record, “Forgiven Now,” which objectively speaking is pretty much every bit as good as “The Dumbest Magnets,” except that I’m not capable of objectivity about the latter.

Steve and Diane also put out a pretty stellar duets record (no longer available, alas, but you can go buy the entire Dolly Varden catalog at their site), and then I pimped Steve and Diane for a duet show at Twangfest 7, where they were rapturously received by at least five of us. (Twangfest Wednesday night shows are usually as much about everyone seeing each other again for the first time in a while and catching up and chatting as they are about the music, which is fine, but that night I wanted to physically assault anyone who talked during Steve and Diane’s set.) Bill and I were planning our wedding at that time, and we agreed that Steve and Diane would make a wonderful wedding band for us, so I took a deep breath after the show and asked Steve, who said they’d be honored and to send him the details.

So Steve and Diane sang at our wedding, with their then-preteen daughter in tow. She hung out with Bill’s niece, who’s just a year younger, and they hit it off, and our families, including my dad, absolutely loved the performance—my oldest brother ended up buying one of their CDs. It couldn’t have been better. The did both appropriate covers (“Together Again,” “If I Needed You,” that kind of thing) as well as their own material, including the title song from “The Dumbest Magnets.” It’s a song that Steve wrote about his wedding to Diane, and objectively, it was probably a little weird for me to request that they sing it at my wedding—it’s their wedding song, not ours, after all. But it kills me, it’s such a perfect (and I mean that word in the most literal sense) song, lyrically and musically, and I couldn’t not have them sing it. Bill and I were married on a glorious October day in one of the pavilions in Tower Grove Park in St. Louis, and the reception was at the Eliot Room at the Schlafly Brewery in St. Louis. Schlafly is where Bill’s favorite beer is made, and where Twangfest’s Wednesday night shows are held, so it was sort of a natural (if amusingly so) place to have our reception. But it’s also a beautifully restored old building with lots and lots of big, wide windows, and there’s a line in “The Dumbest Magnets” that goes “Room all lit from the outside/Indian summer,” and just at the moment that Steve and Diane sang that line, the late afternoon sun was still streaming in, and…well, okay, enough mushiness, but it was a moment of pure, soaring joy, and maybe that captures a little of how special that song, that record, and that band are to me. So I’d probably pimp Steve’s new record even if I didn’t think it was superb…but fortunately, it is. And that’s what I’m pimping today.

Next: a simple five-item pimp list, just to prove that I can too write a post that’s less than novel length.

I’m getting a big kick out of the comments on my Speedies/Student Teachers post from a few days ago, and I expect my blogging will be kind of focused on that for a while, plus I have to admit that I’m having trouble concentrating on much of anything this evening with the news from the Gulf states turning terrifying again (I have friends and acquaintances down that way, and I’m worried as hell about them). But nonetheless—and tying in to the universe’s apparent ongoing effort to keep me somewhere between 1978 and 1981—I need to write just briefly about the Sandy Denny boxed set that arrived in the mail yesterday.

It’s my second Sandy box (this one is “Boxful of Treasures,” which repeats a fair amount of what’s on the box I already owned, “Who Knows Where the Time Goes,” but also includes a lot of demos and home recordings and alternate takes, and I’m a sucker for that kind of thing), which is maybe a little self-indulgent, but I got it for a “good” price (brand new, still shrink-wrapped, not a promo, for $70 instead of the $100+ that most retailers wanted for it), and I was feeling sorry for myself last week, so I ordered it. It arrived yesterday, and I posted about it on one of the music e-mail lists that I’m on, but that wasn’t really the appropriate venue for it—not too many fans over there, or probably even people who know who she was. So I’m going to do something I don’t normally do: crib part of the post from that list and repost it here, with some edits and rewrites.

I guess if I’d made a concerted effort to compare the track listing side by side with that of the other Sandy
box, I’d have realized that there was a lot of overlap between the two, and maybe I wouldn’t have bought it. But then again, as soon as I started reading the liner notes, I thought, “Fuck that.” Richard
Thompson’s introduction alone was worth the money.

I’ve posted about Sandy here on the blog in the past, but this year, I finally came to the conclusion, after years of wavering about whether I could make such a strong statement, that she was simply the greatest singer I’ve ever heard. (That’s opinion–I’m not attempting to state it as fact, so I hope no one will
attack me for it.) Her songwriting was always interesting and occasionally brilliant, and of course, she was an essential part of the revival/modernization of British Isles traditional music. Her death, at the age of just 31, was close to inevitable, and was the result of damage she’d knowingly done to herself, but it was
nonetheless tragic, especially when you consider how much more she might have contributed. Several quotes in the liner notes from those who knew her express surprise and even bitterness that she hasn’t
received the same sort of cult adulation that Nick Drake received, and though I think it’s a little strange to be bitter about something like that, I also see the point (though I’m also a member of the cult of Nick, certainly; that’s a post for another day too). She was extraordinary (as a singer, but also apparently as a human being, according to those who knew her), and irreplaceable.

And mostly, for me at least, it was that voice: breathy (I’ve always said that she sang kind of the way Bette Davis talked), but in no way wispy or ethereal; on the contrary, she was a magnificently powerful singer with extraordinary command and control of her voice, a wonderful sense of dynamics and phrasing, and just the most beautiful, awe-inspiring tone and timbre I’ve ever heard. I can sing some (not so well as I used to, since I’m an old broad and haven’t sung as regularly as I’ve gotten older as I used to), and from the very first time I heard Sandy sing, I tried to model my voice after hers. Doing so improved my phrasing and some other aspects of my singing…but I could never actually sound like Sandy; no one ever did or could. (Wanna see me get really, really mad? Find one of the several reviews from the late 1980s of one of Syd Straw’s records that compared her voice to Sandy’s. Yeah.) There are a lot of female singers in the trad-folk/Brit/Celtic tradition that I admire and adore, from Niamh Parsons’s wonderful dusky contralto to Karan Casey’s miraculous, airy, tripping soprano to Mairead Ni Mhaonaigh’s (hey, first time I’ve ever spelled that right without having to look it up first!) canonically gorgeous and sweet high soprano to Kate Rusby’s modernized version of a great traditional British voice, and more. But when you get right down to it, none of them can touch Sandy: she was the greatest, period.

I started crying as soon as I opened the box and looked at the photo on the booklet cover: an older Sandy (as old as she got, anyway), looking dissipated and world-weary and a little bit lost. Not the photo I’d
have chosen, probably, but an honest one, at least. I’ve always half-wondered (and I’m not the only one) how different her career and life might have been if she had been beautiful and sexy instead of
sweet-faced and dumpy…though that’s speculation for another day.

The first thing I listened to from the box was “The Pond and the Stream,” one of my favorite songs that Sandy wrote. She wrote it about the far more obscure singer Anne Briggs, who was a huge influence on Sandy and other Brit-trad female singers of the time, like Maddy Prior and Linda Thompson. (I didn’t
know about Briggs until this year, I’m embarrassed to say, and I’ve been meaning to have a word with my Lancastrian/Mancunian friend Ged about how he could allow this ignorance of mine to exist. But I’ve made up for it since then.)

When Sandy died in horrible, stupidly unnecessary circumstances in 1978, I was, coincidentally, experiencing my first (and still worst) major depression, and her death hit me especially hard, almost like the death of a friend. I still have the journal entry I wrote about it at the time, though I won’t post it here—there are some limits to how confessional even I’m willing to get. But now that I’m watching “Butterflies” again (and the first season of “The Muppet Show”! Another blast from my past), and since, as noted, the universe seems to want me to revisit my late teen years, I find myself mourning her again. Then again, in some sense, I never really stopped. Every time I hear her sing—that voice, my God, that voice—I mourn her all over again.

…or at least to the Speedies, who were in the New York Times this past Sunday, so maybe now it’s superfluous for me to write about them. Or maybe it means that I have to finish what I started writing about them before the laptop (have I mentioned I hate laptop keyboards? Let me mention it again) ate the entry. (Note to self: hit “save and continue” constantly. After I lost half a day’s work today—good work, the first bit of work at my new job that I was actually proud of, and was even planning to blog about—because Visio decided to crash right after I saved the file and then wouldn’t recover it, my mantra is going to be “Hit save every five seconds” for the rest of my life. But I digress.)

The Times article, like my lost post, focuses on the sudden revival of the song “Let Me Take Your Photograph” via a remixed version that’s being featured in an HP commercial. The article uses Gregory Crewdson, former Speedie and now famous photographer and Yale professor, as its focal point, which seems appropriate to me because in a way, he was my focal point for the band too. Back in my freshman year of college, I moved in with the two frontpeople of a semi-local band, Tina Peel (some of whom later went on to become the much better known Fuzztones); the female half of the couple, Deb O’Nair (real name Carol Krautheim), was a friend of a friend, and the apartment was on a great block in the East Village—this was 1979, and the East Village was barely starting to gentrify, but even then, this was a great block—and my share of the rent was $117/month. So it didn’t seem to matter that after four years of a really longass commute from my family’s apartment on the Upper West Side to my high school in the East Village, I was subjecting myself to almost the exact same commute in reverse, only a few stops longer, from the apartment in the East Village to college up in Morningside Heights, in upper Manhattan. (And adding a ten-minute-on-a-good-day walk to the subway to the mix, since we lived between Avenues A and B and the most logical subway stop to go to was way over on Eighth Street/Astor Place and Broadway. But I digress.) And for a while, till my roommates became totally insufferable, it was a great setup, because I was Miss Punk Rock then anyway, and it didn’t matter that I missed most of my 9 a.m. biology classes that first semester (a small problem since I was a bio major at the time) because I was staying out every night at Club 57 or my beloved Tier 3 or Hurrah or wherever, and even on nights when I stayed in, my roommates had to walk through my bedroom when they came in at 4 a.m. and open the squeaky door to their bedroom because it was a railroad flat. It didn’t matter; I was living exactly the life I’d wanted to lead for years.

Tina Peel’s manager was also one of the partners (owners? managers? I can’t remember anymore) of the great Upper West Side club Hurrah, so we were there all the time even when Tina Peel weren’t playing (that is, when I wasn’t hanging out with my high school friends at Tier 3, a club so brilliant that I can’t even describe it adequately), and partly because of my own connections (I wrote for New York Rocker, and I knew some people who knew some people, that was how it went then) and partly because of my roommates, I got to meet all sorts of bands, both touring ones (hanging out with Madness at Irving Plaza remains one of my fondest memories, though not quite as fond as my memory of hanging out with the Gang of Four on their very first US dates…but that’s really a story for another day) and local ones, including the Speedies.

Back then, the NYC teen punk scene had some really silly rivalries, none of which anyone took very seriously, but there they were. I was spending a lot of time with some little girls (I’m not being condescending there; in addition to being four years younger than me, they really were little–the tallest was 5’0″, I think) who didn’t actually go to my high school, or at least didn’t go there for long, but were vaguely affiliated with it—it was kind of a small scene, and everyone knew someone who went to my high school. I knew them through a guy named Allan Hart, who was one of maybe six or seven punks in my high school when I was still there. Anyway, these little girls and their crowd, the fringe of which I sometimes lurked on, were Stimulators fans. The Stimulators were a hardcore punk band, known mostly for their extraordinarily young (and rather talented) drummer, Harley Flanagan, who I think was about 12 at this time. He was what gave them their notoriety, but they were a good band regardless, and always fun to see live. (And in a weird confluence of eras of my musical life, they gave Soul Asylum their original name: the Stims’ slogan was “Loud Fast Rules,” and the Soul Asylum boys had no idea who the Stimulators were, but they saw the slogan on a photo of the back of someone’s jacket and liked it, in kind of a semi-ironic way, enough to call their band that before changing the name to Soul Asylum. But yet again, I digress.)

Anyway, if you liked the Stimulators, you weren’t supposed to like the much poppier and sweeter-sounding and “nicer” Speedies. There are those who were there then who will now deny that those rivalries existed, but trust me, they did; when I started becoming friends with the Speedies as people, I always had to make sure none of my Stims-fan friends saw me. To complicate matters further, the Speedies had a different sort of rivalry with a semi-local (half from NYC, half from the Westchester suburbs of Larchmont and Mamaroneck) band called the Student Teachers. I loved the Stims and got into them because I wanted to be in with that in crowd, but I purely adored the Student Teachers, who were smartypants but melodic, depressive but catchy, and totally irresistible. (Their guitar player, Philip Shelley, went on to go to Columbia at the same time that I did, and we were friends; he and a later-legendary guy named Ned Hayden, who didn’t go to Columbia (he went to Clark) but spent so much time there that he might as well have, wrote some truly amazing songs together.) Gosh I loved the Teachers. And if you were a Teachers fan, you were really supposed to hate the Speedies.

It wasn’t actually that hard to hate the Speedies, because despite having a good ear for melody (mostly courtesy of their bass player, John Carlucci) and some great guitar playing (thanks to Eric Hoffer and Greg—he was Greg then—Crewdson), they were incredibly annoying due to the insufferable mannerisms of their singer, John Marino. I can’t really imagine what it was like to be gay in high school in that era, and I know a lot of John’s campiness was defensive, but that still didn’t make him a good or even tolerable singer. The fact that he sang in a fake British accent half the time didn’t help; Joey Ramone could get away with that, but only Joey. (When I first heard the remix of “Let Me Take Your Photograph” in the HP ad, I thought it was not a remix but a cover, because John Marino redid the vocal, I guess, and he toned the Brit accent and the mannerisms way down.)

So I didn’t have any trouble maintaining allegiance to the Stims and the Teachers…except that John Carlucci was really good friends with my roommates from Tina Peel, Deb and Rudi. He still lived with his parents in Queens back then, so he stayed at our apartment a lot when he didn’t want to make the trek back to Queens, and even when the two bands weren’t sharing a bill, he’d often come over just to hang out. I had a sort of vague, half-hearted crush on him; he was incredibly cute, so I knew he was way out of my league (even back then, when I had a great body and lots of style), but he was so adorable that it seemed almost silly not to have at least a little crush on him. He was also a sweetie, not the brightest guy on the planet, but good-hearted and lots of fun to be around. And through him, and through Tina Peel and the Speedies playing an increasing number of shows together, I got to know the rest of the band (except for John Marino—he never seemed to register my existence, which was fine with me). I honestly don’t remember Alan, the drummer, very well at all, except that he was a nice guy. I remember that Eric was a sweetie, and even then, his academic brilliance was obvious; when I read that he had gone on to work at Apple (and Sun Microsystems, I think) and was one of the developers of QuickTime, I wasn’t even faintly surprised. Eric was quiet and a little shy and tended to huddle quietly in the corner with his girlfriend, whom he’d been with forever, but I still considered him kind of a friend.

But it was Greg who was really my pal. Greg had a girlfriend too in those days, and I don’t think we were ever interested in each other romantically even on a theoretical basis; at any rate, there was a sort of tacit agreement between us that we were friends and nothing more. But we were sure good friends; he was one of those people you sometimes meet and instantly feel like you’ve known forever. All those memories are kind of hazy now, but I remember that as soon as I walked into the backstage area of whatever club they were all playing, he and I would gravitate toward each other and just talk and talk and talk. “Soulmate” would be way, way too strong a word, because we didn’t spend that much time together and it wasn’t that intense, but he was someone who I just clicked with, in that magical way that doesn’t happen all that often.

None of it lasted all that long. Roommate Rudi (real name: Glenn Dalpis) was truly hideous to live with—he was 26 then, the same age as my oldest brother, and he had the maturity level of a particularly immature 12-year-old—and ultimately, I fell out with them and moved back home for a while. After that, I didn’t go to Speedies gigs much, and eventually I stopped going at all. I’d still see John Carlucci (who was always friendly to me) from time to time at shows, but somehow I rarely ran into the other guys. I moved farther uptown, closer to school, made friends there and started paying more attention to Britpunk than to the local scene, and so Eric and Greg, my favorite Speedies, just sort of slipped out of my world and eventually out of my memory; it wasn’t until a number of years later, when I started to see Greg (who was by then Gregory) written up in the Village Voice or even The New Yorker, that my fond memories came back to me. I was overjoyed for him that he’d become a success, and I went to see some of his exhibits and was very impressed, but not surprised; he wasn’t quite the conspicuous genius that Eric was, but he was smart as hell himself, and gifted, and I was always glad to see him do so well. I’d be truly surprised if he remembered me at all anymore, but I remember him, with great fondness and good feeling.

But now they’re back, those Speedies, on my TV screen on a regular basis (they played the hell out of the HP ad during the US Open). Not that long ago, I finally managed to find an MP3 of a really wretched quality live recording of my favorite Student Teachers song, “Christmas Weather” (I had the single, bought it when it came out, but it’s long since disappeared, on a site that Teachers’ lead singer and frontguy David Scharff set up, and that was a thrill too. A better musical thrill, I might add—the Teachers are still a better band. Old rivalries die hard, I guess. And those old memories, vaguer and vaguer all the time now, are all good ones, so even though every single one of the Speedies seems to have done just fine (better than fine, really) in their post-punk-teen life, I hope they’re making some big money off that ad. In my heart, if not necessarily in my ears, they deserve every penny.

That post the other day garnered a little more attention than expected and, I’m afraid, caused some pain to people I truly didn’t intend to cause pain to, so I think some clarification is in order.

One, it was a passing feeling that didn’t pass as quickly as I hoped it would but did, in fact, pass. Turns out I was coming down with a flu on top of all the other bodily damage I did over the weekend, and that can’t have helped. Also turns out that though my depression is being held at bay/controlled more effectively now than at any time in recent memory, it hasn’t actually gone away completely, something I need to keep in mind. I obviously felt strongly enough about what I knew, intellectually, to be a passing feeling that I felt I had to post about it, so I didn’t retract the post. But I do think it’s important to note that it reflected a (longer than anticipated, but still brief) moment in time, not a permanent state of mind.

Two, and perhaps more important, it was very explicitly not my intent to denigrate the very notion of Internet friendships, and if the post came across that way, I’m more sorry than I can say, because most of the important friendships I’ve formed over the last decade have been through the Internet, and I would never for a minute suggest that they are somehow less valid than friendships formed in more conventional ways. (I hesitate to even use the word conventional, because nowadays, the Internet is just as conventional a means of finding friends and lovers as anything else, really.) Sitting in that room on Saturday night, with some of the best friends, Internet or otherwise, that anyone could ask for, I knew that they were people who loved me and cared about me and “got” me; I just couldn’t feel it, not right at that moment. If I’d just gone to bed early and decompressed for a while, I don’t think the feeling would have even occurred to me. But there it was, and the fact that it was happening in a group of people who matter so much to me was what made it especially baffling, and troubling.

Maybe it’s too easy to say I’m over it now…but I’m over it now. It was a feeling that was real, and disconcerting, but it’s gone, and that’s all I’ll say about it. The subject of friendship in general, that’s something I hope/plan to continue talking about, because it’s kind of the great puzzle of my life in many ways (along with more mundane puzzles, like “how do they get those ships into bottles, anyway?”). But I’m afraid I’ve inadvertently made it sound like I don’t value the friends I’ve made through various music lists and through Twangfest in particular, and nothing, really, could be farther from the truth. (Just as a single example, I literally don’t know how I would have gotten through the last, say, seven or so years without my friend Marie, who has been as true and loyal a friend as anyone could ever ask for. And then there’s my husband, who I technically met in person before we started corresponding by e-mail, but who still started out as part of my Internet world, and I wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world—”real” or “virtual”— either. Okay, that’s two examples.)

So, enough about that for now. Onward to some musical stuff: I just recently bought a record by the traditional Aran Isles singer Lasairfhiona Ni Chonaola, and yeah, I admit that I bought it partly because I wanted to own a record by someone with a name as complex and beautiful as that (and learn to pronounce it, which I have), but it’s also one of the more wonderful records I’ve heard in the recent past. I can’t honestly say that my listening habits are tending back toward Celtic and mainstream country lately, because I’m actually listening to just as much indie-ish rock as I have for the last year or two, maybe slightly more. But somehow I’ve found a way to bring the country and Celtic stuff back into my frame of reference, and after volunteering at the local Irish fest a couple of weeks ago, I’ve really been in the mood for the Celtic stuff. So I’ve been on a teeny bit of a buying binge there, and so far I haven’t been disappointed: in addition to Lasairfhiona’s record, I picked up two by Cathie Ryan (one of many former singers for Cherish the Ladies) that I’m loving. Next up, I think I’m going to buy something by the Old Blind Dogs, whom I half-heard at the Irish Fest and was favorably impressed with. And after that? Irish lessons, for real this time.

…is the title of the first Lemonheads record,* and any direct relevance it has to this post is a little tricky for me to write about because if anyone still reads this blog—and I have my serious doubts about that—they are my friends, or at least people I know.

But I’m having serious issues with friendship, and specifically with some of my longest-standing friendships, right now. “Longest-standing,” in this case, includes people I’ve known for about eight or nine years, I guess, which for me is practically the equivalent of a lifelong friendship for many people; I’m always amazed by and envious of people who are still friends with folks they’ve known since high school or grade school or whatever, because I’m sure not.

In fact, I’m worse at maintaining friendships for any length of time than anyone I’ve ever met. One of my best friends from high school stays in sporadic touch despite my failure to reciprocate in any sort of timely fashion, and the same goes for some of my friends from my just-post-college days in Austin, TX, but that’s about it. I don’t think I’ve talked to any of my college friends since 1990, the year my first husband and I got married. I have a stalwart friend and former co-worker from my Minneapolis years who refuses to let me drop out of his life entirely, and I’m grateful beyond words for that, especially since the rest of my Mpls. friends** finally gave up on me a year or so ago.

With a couple of notable and still painful exceptions,*** my friendships usually end because of distance or a sort of natural growing apart (at least, I think that kind of thing is natural; I am so bad at friendship and human contact in general that I honestly don’t know), not because of fights or one of us suddenly deciding we hate the other or really any active hostility. And maybe that’s an entirely typical experience, especially for someone who’s changed major aspects of life as frequently as I have; like I said, I don’t really understand the way friendship works for other people, so I don’t know for sure. Maybe it’s just that I take it harder than I should when friendships change or dissolve. But of all my many personality failings—and there are a lot of them—I’ve always considered my inability to sustain/manage/”do” friendships the biggest and most damaging of them.

Sometimes I think it’s because I’m such a loner, but then again, sometimes I wonder if it’s the other way around, if I’m a loner because I avoid human contact because I’m so awful at it. I know that when I’m in social situations for more than an evening, I need to hide for days, sometimes weeks, afterwards. I don’t know if that’s something I should be actively concerned about and trying to change, or if it’s okay that I just need time to myself after time with other people; it’s just another of those things about human contact that I don’t seem to get.

And okay, I’m not saying I hate my current crop of friends. (I wouldn’t say that even if I felt it, because it would be bad manners to say the least.) But this weekend, in the company of several of the ones I’m ostensibly closest to, I had what I sometimes think of as a “Bye Bye Blackbird” moment, because of the lyric “No one here can love or understand me…”: I was talking and laughing and drinking and apparently having fun with all of them throughout the weekend, but by Saturday night, it had gradually started to feel like pretty much none of them understood or even knew or cared about me. (Yes, I know how self-pitying that sounds, and is, and I hate sounding that way; one reason I sometimes think I really do need to become a hermit is that I don’t like myself when I’m self-pitying—does anyone?—and I think it’s a good idea for me to avoid people and things and situations that make me not like myself.)

The feeling subsided some, especially after a totally painless and non-fraught short social encounter with someone not in that crowd later in the weekend, but it didn’t pass entirely, and it hasn’t yet. I don’t think any one thing or person triggered it, and I can’t put my finger on why or when I started feeling that way, but I did, and it wasn’t fun, boy howdy. It didn’t make me not like the people involved, but it threw me, badly. Driving home from St. Louis, I spent most of the 225 miles in tears, because I was suddenly starting to think about tossing my whole life out the window yet again and moving somewhere else and not knowing any of the people I know now.

I’m not going to do that, and even when I was feeling like doing it I knew I wasn’t going to do it or even seriously entertain the idea of doing it, because despite my apparent inability to learn from my previous mistakes, evidently one thing I have successfully learned after doing it one too many times is that just throwing out my current life and moving to a different city is something I can’t do anymore; the fact that I was able to do it successfully twice was just a very lucky fluke, because the plain fact is that is just doesn’t work.

Maybe it was just that I was tired; certainly, a few days of sleep deprivation plus a bunch of Red Bull couldn’t have helped me feel calm and serene. Maybe it’s that I’m a little depressed again. The euphoria created by changing jobs has definitely worn off; I still really love my job and the people I work with are great, but the inevitable realization that making one extremely positive change in life doesn’t make the whole rest of my life all better has hit. Maybe it’s all hormones, who knows. Maybe it’s just that drinking more than a drink or so really doesn’t work for me anymore (actually, it’s definitely that in some small measure; one thing I figured out decisively this weekend is that I really don’t enjoy being drunk or being around people who are drunk). I don’t know, and I’m not going to make any rash pronouncements about anything for a while, till I’ve had some time to process what exactly is bugging me about my friendships at the moment. Except this one pronouncement, which really isn’t all that rash: I definitely need to have some friends whom I didn’t meet through the Internet. I’m not sure how I’m going to go about doing that; as terrible as I am at keeping friendships, I may be even worse at making them in the first place. But it’s something I need to figure out how to do.

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*That was when the Lemonheads were a really young little punk rock band and Evan Dando was the drummer rather than the frontman. I like both the pre- and the post-Dando-as-superstar versions of the band, in different ways.

**A particularly fine set of friends, which makes it especially sad that they gave up on me, but geez, it’s not like I can blame them. And not that I go around ranking the groups of friends from various phases of my life or anything, except that I do, and they were among my favorites.

***I think last year was the year I finally completely got over one of those exceptions, a best-friendship (the best friendship I’ll ever have, I think, which isn’t a reflection on later close friendships but just a result of my belief that you don’t form the same sorts of joined-at-the-hip friendships when you’re not a teenager that you do when you are) that ended, badly, in 1982. Marina. Maybe I’ll write about her at some point. I really am over it, but on the other hand, I can’t say I wouldn’t love to talk to her again someday.

I’m not sure if I’m experiencing a bout of unexpected nostalgia or if I’ve simply entered a time warp in which it is suddenly the late 1970s. This morning, I was browsing my regularly delivered bit of permission-based spam from BBCAmerica, and I noted that they were advertising the DVD of the first season of Butterflies. So I bought it. (Being an inveterate spender of money online, I also noted that DeepDiscountDVD.com had it for about $10 less, so I bought it there, of course. BBCAmerica does pretty good spam e-mails, but their shopping site is limited and kind of ludicrously overpriced.) This comes on the heels of my acquiring the CD reissue of David Johansen’s first solo album (which I finally found at a not-too-ridiculous price, after searching for more than a year), not to mention my previously sort-of-mentioned involuntary and frequent plunges into my past courtesy of the Speedies’ song that’s being used in an HP commercial. I’m starting to wonder if this is all one of those Freaky Friday things where I’ve woken up and turned back into a teenager (in spirit, that is; alas, not in body. If I could wake up and fit into my old 26″ waist Trash and Vaudeville black stovepipe jeans, I’d be happy to accept any accompanying weirdness).

Of course, in some sense, I’ve never totally stopped being a teenager. Not having kids makes it easier to feel that way, and remaining a music fanatic at an age when most people, even those who were huge music fans in their younger years, have long since settled into either indifference or just vague interest in music, also makes it easier to maintain that teen feeling. But these recent things refer back to a very specific part of my teeny years—let’s call it 1979, since that would be about the midpoint of the stuf f in question—and they’re aspects of that time that it never occurred to me to be nostalgic for.

I’m not making sense yet, am I? Okay, let me enumerate just a little:

1. Butterflies was a British TV series that started airing on PBS not long after it first aired in the UK, which was 1978. I actually don’t quite remember what year it was when I started watching it, but I know I was still living at home, so it was pre-1981. (And then I watched it again, the whole series, years and years later when PBS re-ran it, but that would skew my whole point here, so let’s ignore it.)

It was a quirky series, the type of series that a lot of guys I know would have hated then, as teenagers, and would hate now, as ostensible grownups, though it wasn’t exactly a girly series. It was about a family, and especially the parent couple, and a little bit about adultery, and suburban life, I guess—none of which were things that had any relevance to me personally when I first watched it. (Well, okay, I had a family, but my two much older brothers were nothing at all like the late-teen sons on the show.) It starred Geoffrey Palmer, who any USian who’s ever watched a second of British TV would recognize (among many, many other things, he starred in the brilliant series The Fall and Rise of Reginald Perrin), and Wendy Craig, who most USians probably wouldn’t recognize, which is their loss because she’s such a lovely actress. It was both very funny and absolutely heart-tearing. Ria, the Wendy Craig character, is a generally happy but vaguely restless and dissatisfied suburban wife and mother, and one day, she meets a charming and extremely wealthy man in the park who becomes utterly smitten with her. The show centers around the family’s daily life, with some very funny running jokes and some sensitively handled plots involving the teenage sons, but the temptation of an affair with Leonard, the rich guy, quietly underlies the whole air of the show. It takes over Ria’s inner life, even though her strong moral code (and her essential conventionality, I guess, though the moral stuff is more obvious, and admirable) means she never gives into the temptation of having an affair. (She comes very close at one point and gets cold feet, in one of the more moving episodes.)

The acting was superb, from Geoffrey Palmer’s likeable if slightly irascible overworked dentist husband to Bruce Montague’s ineffably sad and lonely Leonard, and the young men who played the sons were great too. But that doesn’t quite explain why the series affected me the way it did, and I’m not sure I can explain it even now. I will say, though, that even thinking about certain scenes from it (even now, at least 15 years since the last time I saw an episode of it) can make me cry, and on the other hand, remembering some of the running jokes (there were always issues with moving the family’s three or four cars around their small driveway, and the neighbors in their quiet suburban street were always shaking fists at them or staring at them in bewilderment) can still crack me up. Back when I used to write songs, I even wrote one around a line from the show: Leonard is once again trying to persuade Ria to have a tryst with him, and he comments, quite sardonically, that “everyone is doing it these days.” Ria’s response is adamant and startling and memorable: “I am not a product of ‘these days,’” she says. That affected me profoundly, don’t ask me why. (It still does, in fact; I’m having to fight back tears and will have to plead allergies if anyone walks by.)

2. So that was Butterflies, and I have to say I can’t wait for it to show up in the mail (which, knowing DeepDiscountDVD, should be sometime in late October…but hey, they ship for free, so who am I to complain?). (Season 2 isn’t out on DVD yet, but I’m going to preorder it.) The Speedies thing I’m going to have to get back to later, because it will be long and ruminative, providing my @#%& laptop keyboard doesn’t eat it again. So that leaves the first David Johansen record, which I haven’t listened to yet because I’m just a tiny bit afraid that it won’t sound as wonderful to me as it did in 1978. But I’m pretty sure it will. It’s one of those inescapably time-and-place records for me, and I suspect that when I hear it, I’ll be sitting in the armchair in the living room of the apartment I grew up in, gazing out at the beautiful mess of Broadway, maybe sipping an alcohol-and-Tab concoction that I put together after everyone went to bed, feeling the spring breeze coming in through the window. Maybe my first boyfriend, Richard—he who should forever be known as “that shithead”—will be sitting next to me, and my parents will be out of town and we’ll be staying up all night listening to records on my dad’s stereo. It’s one of those records.

One of my claims to…er, something (not fame) is that I saw the New York Dolls when I was a tiny child. Okay, I was 12, just about to turn 13. I put on makeup and glitter and platform shoes and got myself into Max’s Kansas City (“Are you 18?” the door guy asked. “Yes, I’m 18,” I replied in a world-weary tone. “Yeah, you’re 18,” he said, rolling his eyes. But he let me in anyway.) It wasn’t the first show I ever went to, but it was my first nightclub show, and it was a giant thrill. And growing up in NYC at the time, I was lucky enough to be hip enough to read Creem often enough to know and love the New York Dolls. By the time their various former members started playing in new formations, I was a seasoned CBGB and Max’s denizen, and I saw Johnny Thunders more times than I could count, but David Jo sort of disappeared for a while. And then he put out that first solo record. This is a few years before the Buster Poindexter thing, and eons before the Buster Poindexter thing went from being entertaining to being kind of a bad joke. No one knew quite what to expect from that first record (although he played some shows before it came out, and some of the songs were already becoming familiar, like “Funky But Chic”), and I don’t think anyone expected it to be so damn good. It rocked like crazy, baby, but it was also a breakup record (two breakups, really–the Dolls, plus David’s breakup with his longtime girlfriend Cyrinda Foxe), so it had heartbreak and passion and David’s big, surprising voice tearing you right up.

I sometimes think of it as the record that I lost my virginity to, though that’s factually incorrect; there was no music playing when I was actually losing my virginity, but the last record we listened to that night before the sex part was not the David Johansen record but Graham Parker’s Squeezing Out Sparks. But we spent a lot of time listening to music that night (and drinking Canadian Club, and feeling the June breeze coming in off Broadway, and so on), and the David Johansen record was one of our selections. That’s not the only reason it has such meaning for me—it was practically liturgy for me and all of my friends in those last two years of high school—but you have to admit it’s a pretty compelling contribution to my feelings about the record.

Nostalgia isn’t something I’m enormously prone to. Yeah, I love to tell stories about my Twin\Tone days and my following-the-Replacements-around-the-country days, partly because they’re sort of the only things that make me interesting (at least to some people), and partly because I want to tell them while I can still remember them (I’m quite serious about that), and partly just because they’re good stories and happy memories. But after spending a lot of my 20s and even early 30s wishing that it were any other time in my life, I gave up nostalgia somewhere along the line. So many things in my life have gotten steadily better as I’ve aged that nostalgia just doesn’t make that much sense. And maybe that’s why I’m taken aback by this sudden, random resurgence of weird bits of my past. I mean, here I am in 2005, and I really wasn’t particularly expecting to find myself in 1979. And it’s not a bad thing, but it sure as hell is weird.

(Gah. I ignore the blog for a mere couple of weeks or so, and it gets swamped by nefarious comment spam. Bastards.)

I’d try to count how many CDs I’ve bought in the last two or three weeks, but I’m afraid to. I think it might be more than 15. After months of relative moderation, I’ve gone kind of nuts lately on music purchases. And I’m afraid it’s going to get worse before it gets better.

Right now, I’m listening to one of the first purchases in the recent spate: Sleater-Kinney’s “The Woods” (not to be confused with Malcolm Middleton’s “In the Woods,” which I’m probably going to end up downloading from Chemikal Underground, because it’s only available on import here so far). I confess to admiring Sleater-Kinney more than really liking them; I find that I don’t even listen to “Call the Doctor,” my favorite record of theirs, all that often. That may wind up being the case with this record too, I don’t know, but at the moment, it’s exactly what I’m in the mood to hear. Even the eleven-minute song sounds good.

Just before this, I listened to “de nova,” the new record by The Redwalls. It too was superb. They’re deliberately and a little self-consciously retro, yeah, but when your retro-ness includes the best elements of the British Invasion, being retro isn’t a bad thing at all.

Next up: the Greencards, whose second (I think) album I just picked up. They’re new to me, but that’s probably just because I don’t have a reliable source of bluegrass-ish recommendations anymore; checking the archives of a twang-related list that I used to subscribe to, I see that I’m a little late to the party on this one. Haven’t listened to the record yet—it just arrived yesterday—but I loved the MP3s I heard.

And then there’s the first Malcolm Middleton record, Emiliana Torrini’s perfectly wonderful “Fisherman’s Woman,” the Wrights’ “Down This Road,” the new Karan Casey record, Dwight Yoakam’s new one, Richmond Fontaine’s superb “The Fitzgerald”…and that list doesn’t even include my likely top two records of the year—the forthcoming Son Volt record and Robbie Fulks’s “Georgia Hard.” It has emphatically not been a bad year for music.

Yeah, I’m already hypothesizing a best-of list. It is halfway through the year, after all. And the spot for “Best 2004 Record That I Didn’t Hear Until 2005″ is already nailed down: James Yorkston and the Athlete’s “Just Beyond the River.” I liked their first record, “Moving Up Country,” quite well, but the second one is in a whole different league. If James Yorkston had a really great voice, as opposed to just an okay one, it would be in serious contention for Best Record Ever. (Slight exaggeration, but only a slight one.)

From perusing the James Yorkston site, I learned about Anne Briggs, an obscure English trad-folk legend who apparently hated the sound of her recorded voice and so gave up recording, and eventually singing. I listened to all of the available clips, and I have to admit that I didn’t like her voice all that much either. But I was so distressed by the idea that there’s an obscure English trad-folkie out there whom I hadn’t heard of yet that I ended up buying two of her CDs. Music fandom is sometimes a very strange thing.

(But geez, Sandy Denny cited her as an influence. How could I not buy the CDs?)

Kathryn Williams—the Nick Drake-iest of all the singer-songwriters ever to be compared to Nick Drake (except for Alexi Murdoch, who’s almost too Nick Drake-y)—managed to sneak out a new CD without my realizing it, so it’s on order. And to my utter delight, John Doyle has a new CD coming out in two weeks, only four years after his debut. I’ll be ordering that one the day it comes out too.

I’ve also finally started knitting again, after a long hiatus. July is an odd time to start knitting again—holding fuzzy synthetic fibers is not the best thing I can think of to do on a warm summer evening—but I had to start again sometime, and this past weekend was as good as any. I’m finishing the cat bed that I started, um, last fall. The bottom piece is finished; I tried to get the cats to pay attention to it, but other than Liam chewing the loose end that I haven’t woven in yet, no dice. Maybe when it has its nice fuzzy cobalt blue sides assembled…

And yet, with all of this going on, I’m still considering buying a PlayStation2. Because evidently I don’t have enough ways to squander my leisure time.

…about getting the blog started again? Well, see, there’s this thing called Twangfest…and I should never try to do anything in the weeks leading up to it, or for that matter in the week after it. I’ve barely looked at a computer other than at work this whole week.

I’ll do a write-up of Twangfest later, I think. This is just a stealth post in the meantime that has the dual purpose of keeping the blog sort of active and reminding me that a potential record of the year is coming out next week: The Dreadful Yawns’ new one, after a long hiatus. I write that as though I know something about the band, but in fact I just heard of them this morning, via the Miles of Music weekly e-mail. The description intrigued me, so I found some clips, and it was pretty much love at first hearing. I am leery of judging anything based on just a couple of 45-second clips, but I can’t imagine hating the rest of the record. (Famous last words.) So I’m posting this in part to remind myself to buy it when it comes out on Tuesday.

Also recently heard and liked: Columbus, Ohio’s the Squares. They have an EP out. I have philosophical objections to EPs, especially ones with only four or five tracks, but I might buy this one just to show support. And then there are the St. Louis bands I’ve been liking lately, like the Love Experts and the Gentleman Callers and the (now defunct, sadly) Phonocaptors. Plus Glossary have a new album coming out that they’re already sold out of; I’ll be buying it when the second pressing is available. And then there’s…well, suffice to say that my months of buying very few CDs have come to an end. Stupid good bands, they keep costing me money.

All this meme-tagging stuff is new to me, but Jamie tagged me with this one at least a week ago, probably more, and I figured it would be a good way to get the blog restarted.

The last CD I bought was:
Orange Juice, The Very Best of. There’s a new Orange Juice comp that just came out called The Glasgow School, which focuses solely on their Postcard Records days. Reading about it made me all nostalgic and wistful, so I went hunting around for You Can’t Hide Your Love Forever, which I have on vinyl somewhere but have never owned on CD. Couldn’t find it, but I did find this best-of, which includes both “Rip It Up” and (most important) “Felicity.” And suddenly it’s 1981 again.

Song playing right now:
Erm, nothing when I started typing this, but the mere mention of “Felicity” drove me to put it on. Instant happiness. I can’t explain what it is with me and that song—it’s partly a time-and-place thing, but it’s also just the type of song that fills my heart with joy and also makes me grin. Rare qualities in a song, especially the latter.

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Five? Sheesh. How about five hundred?
Oh, okay, five:
“Petal”—Lori Carson
“The Hatfield Side”—Cheri Knight
“Dancing on the Ashes”—Robbie Fulks (a song about a veteran of the Somme, which I find one of the most compelling stories in history, really. Someday I’d like to ask Robbie what inspired him to write about that particular topic—was it something he was reading, or just his imagination, or what?)
“I Will Dare”—The Replacements
“Goodnight Loser”—The V-Roys/Scott Miller (either version will do)

Five people to whom IĆ¢??m passing the baton:
Um, yeah. I’m going to have to give that one some thought…like thinking up five people I know who blog.

Okay, a relatively low-key and perhaps inauspicious restart to the blog, but a restart nonetheless. Later, I’ll talk about my new job, and how I finished grad school (tortuously, in a nutshell, but ultimately successfully), and I swear I’ll get to that next installment of the Mats saga. And maybe I’ll write about just why 1981 was such an important year for me.